hey, NeedaMirer! welcome to the EF community!
sounds like you already know the issue: patience is a virtue, my friend! it's been said that lack of moderation is abuse... going about weightloss/fatloss that way is abuse to your body.
have you read the stickies on weightloss/fatloss? if not, i'd recommend that.
btw, you say you like to build toward a goal. then build a goal that is not time-based. aim for a body-mass-index reading or bodyfat percentage. maybe you need to become more task-oriented and plan your workouts rather than plan a goal-oriented workout... that is, your goal is to do your workout, and thus develop a lifestyle that includes exercise.
really, what you need is a paradigm shift and a change of priorities. goals are great to strive for, but they shouldn't be greater than a vision: a healthier, balanced, stronger, livelier way of living.
trust this helps...
take care of yourself.