The 'no more donuts!' Journal

[donuts]

i couldn't edit my old ticker it kept taking me back to the beginning to make a new one.

i looked up other sites for tickers and have a new one, cant wait to get the treasure at the end haha.

my weight is falling fast, i got that before on my yoyo diets and after the beginning it slowed down.

hopefully it wont slow down too soon.

im enjoying the pounds sliding off.

[BlackMagicPanther]

One suggestion about the treadmill from a guy who started out at the gym at 296lbs. Don't make running on it your goal. Go for elevation gain instead of increasing speed for at least the first year. Running increases the risk of injury over just increasing the elevation. The worst thing you can do is injure yourself in the gym when you are first getting into the exercising.

[Mr. Stone]

Originally Posted by BlackMagicPanther

One suggestion about the treadmill from a guy who started out at the gym at 296lbs. Don't make running on it your goal. Go for elevation gain instead of increasing speed for at least the first year. Running increases the risk of injury over just increasing the elevation. The worst thing you can do is injure yourself in the gym when you are first getting into the exercising.

Beat me to it!

Anyway, it is AWESOME that you are getting after it. I would suggest some resistance training if you haven't started. However, I would get some help with it before you dive in. Form and posture is very important!

I'm very excited to see your progress and will be checking in regularly. Forget about Mariah Carey and the like. They are not you and what you should want is a healthier, better YOU!

[donuts]

thanks will do, i was worried about the running too because when I run i feel very tired and can't go on after a min or two, whereas at the same speed i can walk very fast for much longer.

there are alot of other equipment at the gym and when i get fitter i will try that also.

I don't really know what resistance training is, i will like to find out about that and try it.

right now i really want to reduce my jeans size so i will concentrate on my lower body.

although i get told any workout does affect all the body at some level which if true is great.

i do enjoy the picture on the fridge, it helps when i go for a snack to see a large me next to a slimmer largish yet pretty woman, i don't have any slimmer pics of myself or would put myself and i definitely dont want relatives pics on my fridge so a celebs physique as a guide seems appropriate to me.

the point here is to get a slimmer me not be anybody else, the picture idea is a guide only to the types of body size i can achieve if i keep to my diet and it seems to be working, i sometimes turn away from the fridge when i see the huge me on it.

ive been doing good with the gym i think but not so great with the food.

to update i went to the gym on wednesday but my legs and feet were still aching from the day before so i didn't work out i used the sauna instead then showered and left.

the heat helped with the aches and pains i felt better after.

i went again on thursday and did 15mins on the treadmill then had a 10min break.

then on the bike for 5mins, i'm feeling better on it now and my butt doesn't hurt as much, strange.

then on the cross trainer but only for 2mins.

then back onto the treamill for 25mins then i left.

my legs were aching again on friday so i decided to leave it and will go again on monday.

i think i will start attending the fitness classes at the gym too.

in a way i am disappointed with myself because i thought i could do better then that and go everyday but my legs ache and i dont want to injure myself.

with food ive not been great.

at home im improving. my meals are a little healthier i am frying less and grilling more.

i am also eating more fruits and veg and drinking water.

its when im outside that i slip up alot.

the takeouts and donuts have been alot over the weekend and i was very disappointed to see my weight right now is more than before the weekend.

hopefully i will do better next week.

[donuts]

hi just to update my diary.

two weeks ago today(tuesday) was the last time i was in the gym.

i did 30mins on the treadmill then decided to go to the circuit training class downstairs.

im glad i went, the trainer and other gym users were great they gave me alot of advice and made me feel very welcome.

although im the fattest person in the class i didnt feel like it they are so nice and i realised i need to stop being so shy and be more confident.

i tried alot of the other machines and started doing more than just cardio for once which felt great.

although i admit the treadmill is still my favorite.

i had planned to attend the classes daily but i haven't been in once since then.

that night i felt sharp chest pains and it kind of scared me.

i thought i was having a heart attack.

by the time i could call the ambulance they were gone so i went to the doctor.

he said he doubted it was a heart attack and most likely due to stress or a muscle.

i have been safe to return to the gym since but its kind of shaken me emotionally for a couple of weeks and i didnt feel like going.

i am ready to start going back now and will try for tomorrow morning.

the old eating habits also came back.

im trying hard to reverse them again.

[tooncesthecat]

Wow! Good that you are back in the gym but bad about the chest pain scare! Be careful and just back off a bit when your body tells you to. Keep the diet clean and you'll make your goals!

[donuts]

thanks.

yes it was a scare, i thought i was having a heart attack and my time was up.

the doctor sent me for a heart scan and everything is okay which im so happy to say.

the pains continued on and off for a few days but the doctor told me my heart is fine.

i was supposed to go to the gym today but i didnt, i cant help feeling anxious i keep thinking if i get on the treadmill i'll drop dead.

so stupid. but i cant help feeling it.

i ate lots of fried foods today.

im guessing if im to drop dead that will be the reason not the cardio.

i dont know what is wrong with me.

i was doing so well and now im back where i was.

i will make myself stay away from fried food tomorrow and get to the gym even if its for a few minutes.

i have to, i really cant go back to where i was not doing anything about my weight.

[donuts]

i didnt go to the gym yesterday.

i was going to go but then my bestfriend called me the night before and said i needed some spoiling to cheer me up.

she wasnt wrong there.

she knew how much the heart thing freaked me out and i guess she wanted to make me feel better.

i was feeling unattractive and sorry for myself.

we went to the beauty salon instead and i had my face cleaned and nails and hair done.

i felt great after.

i am ready to start gym again on monday.

i have been drinking more water than usual.

im still struggling with the fruits but im trying to eat as many as i can daily.

bad news is my weight has gone back to where it was and worse.

good news is my skin looks great.

it looks much clearer than it did early last month.

i just hope i do better with my weight this month.

[IMFREAKZILLA]

diets are full of strikes and gutter balls just remember that.

[donuts]

thanks.

i just hope its third time lucky for me this time, lol.

went to the gym yesterday morning.

it sure was good to be back.

did 5 mins on the treadmill then the circuit class.

went again this morning.

did 5mins treadmill.

then 30mins cycle.

i was surprised with the cycling, it was easier than the treadmill for some reason, and when i started i could hardly do a minute on it.

then circuit class for 30mins.

then home.

didn't fry anything today, baked in the oven.

also had some fruit.

[IMFREAKZILLA]

may i ask you something donuts?

[donuts]

well sure ya can.

shoot.

i didn't go to the gym today.

i also ate alot of fried chicken and fried potatoes.

and donuts.

im very disappointed with myself.

i was stupid but i am determined to not let it get to me too much.

i made up by eating a salad and grilled fish for dinner.

and a banana for desert.

i hope to do better tomorrow.

[IMFREAKZILLA]

are you on any medication?

[IMFREAKZILLA]

donuts

[donuts]

lol, yep donuts is my name.

sorry just got online since updating my journal yesterday.

im not on any medication no.

but i do take aspirin and painkillers sometimes.

mostly during my menstrual time of the month but sometimes for a headache or muscle pain too.

i dont have a heart condition either according to my doctor.

but after i experienced the chest pains i have my doubts, maybe i'll get another doctors opinion on that.

he said its stress or muscle pain.

the pain was so sharp that i doubt it could be a muscle.

and im not under any extreme stress to cause that.

just my kids driving me mad all the time, but i love that.

the most stress i have is always being miserable about my weight.

deep down its making me very unhappy being so large.

but not so unhappy that i would get pains from it i dont think.

i have also began taking supplements.

i take a vitamin supplement if i dont eat fruit that day, i find it hard to eat fruit.

i went to the gym today.

i did 25mins bike.

20mins treadmill.

2mins crosstrainer.

i also checked my weight on the weight machine in the gym.

i am 206.8lbs

the trainer who does the circuit class wasn't in.

i was told he will be back on tuesday.

i tried the other machines on my own.

i like the climbing machine alot, but its a tough one

i did 30sec on that then a break then 30sec again.

i tried using one of the gym balls too but i felt like a huge spongy lump trying to work it.

my body is so big so i gave up after 1min.

but i will definitley try it again tomorrow, it was fun.

[donuts]

i couldn't go to the gym today.

i will go again on monday.

probably just as well because my legs are still aching from the last workout.

im not doing so great with the healthy eating either.

i had alot of pizza for dinner last night.

i hope i do better tonight.

[A1food4U]

You can't "hope " to do better donuts, if the goal is worthwhile and you truely want it then you must stop side tracking your self with the foods you choose to eat. the advances your making with the excersize will only yeild the results your looking for if you can change the way you view food.

You working so hard, give yourself the chance to succeed and clean up what you eat. remember, it's a life style not a diet!!!

[die_baas]

Donuts

From the start I am going to say that if I offend you: "I'm sorry, it was not my intention".

I have noticed quite a few things.

1. I am starting to see a pattern in your new lifestyle approach.
1. You go to the gym full of enthusiasm
2. You work out very hard to burn calories and lose fat
3. You over-train yourself and end up being to sore for your next workout
4. You skip a workout and end up eating calorie rich food as a means of feeling better.
5. You feel bad that you screwed up and start at #1 again.

Personally I think that you should start off with taking it easier on your workouts.
And gradually work out harder. Until you can work out hard enough without causing any major pains or injuries.

2. I don't know how to put this subtle.
You should stop eating food with empty calories in other words you should stop eating crap.
Yeah I know easier said than done, but as said in the above posts is a lifestyle.
What I did was to go through my kitchen and tossed every single item that was relative unhealthy to unhealthy. e.g. Sunflower oil (for frying), Ice cream, Instant noodles, Fizzy drinks, candy bars, sugar, etc. I gave it to some home-less guy and ended up feeding him for more than a week.

Next I went to the grocery store and only bought something if I knew it was healthy. I try to go grocery shopping immediately after I went training. Then I don't buy all kinds of junk that would negatively effect all my hard work.

I used to be hungry all the time but after some good advice from everybody here at EF thats not the case anymore. The problem with me was that I ate food that doesn't have enough nutritional value. Just something to look into.

3. I think you should start taking a cooking course
I personally think that people who enjoy eating deep fried foods have no idea how that food will taste if made in a healthy way. If you like eating pizza, make your own. Use whole wheat dough. Choose your own toppings just go easy on the harder cheeses. this way you can make something you like eating into something you will enjoy as well and which is healthy.
If you enjoy drinking wine, don't buy the cheap stuff buy a fancy wine and enjoy a glass with friends. You catch my drift.

4.Take aways
I can't stand it, no I hate it, when people prepare my food from the cheapest ingredients in the quickest way as possible. You can make you own much healthier and much more nutritious meal for half the price. I'm not saying to stop eating fast food altogether but rather save that money and buy yourself something nice when you lose say 10lbs.

Hope that my 2cents will help you towards a better lifestyle.
I like to think about starting to live healthy as cliff diving. Jumping is difficult but when you can see that first 10lbs dropping off the rest will be as easy as falling. And at the end you will want to do it over and over and over again.

Regards

[donuts]

thanks for the advice.

no offence taken at all.

constructive critcism is always well recieved from an overweight donut, lol.

and any advice on health is always appreciated.

its true i need to get out of habit of 'hoping' i dont eat unhealthy again and just not eat unhealthy.

and i should cool down on the workouts too.

i do enjoy working out now and feel good during the workout, the muscle pains come after.

i need to figure out when to stop.

it is difficult because when i workout i feel great and dont feel im overworking myself until later.

i really dont want to damage any muscles or anything, i hate it when my legs ache so much the next day and i cant go to the gym.

the throwing out all unhealthy foods from the kitchen isnt possible for me because i live with my partner and kids, their food is in the cupboards too.

they are very supportive of me trying to do something about my health but asking them to have a kitchen without a cookie jar would be too much for me.

they eat very healthy and enjoy their deserts in moderation, its just me who cant help overeating everything and is fat.

i havent been to the gym since thursday.

and i have been feeling depressed and emotionally sick since yesterday.

i went to the fairground with my kids and i had to get off one of the rides because i am so fat the bar wouldn't close.

there were other large parents there and they all sat in just fine except me.

the girl was nice about it and we tried another two seats but then they wouldnt close either and after a few minutes of switching seats she told me id have to get off because none of the bars close.

i joked with good humour i was on a diet and would be back at christmas to ride it after i lost a few pounds.

my kids know me better though and wanted to come off too but i told them to stay on and enjoy the ride.

i dont want my own weight issues to affect them, but at times like this they do and i felt so bad.

after they came off they asked if i was okay and kept giving me extra hugs and kisses all day which they only do if im sick or sense im feeling sad or worried about something.

and everytime they did i hated myself even more for putting them in this position and them feeling this way.

i told them i was fine and smiled and joked the whole day for their sakes but going by their behaviour they didnt buy it.

and im disgusted to say that after they went to bed last night i ate and ate and ate.

so no guesses to how im feeling today.

but im trying hard not to let it get to me too much and start over again and follow through.

my legs are feeling better and will go to the gym tomorrow if all the aches have comnpletely gone.

i am too going to try so very hard to clean up what i eat.

[die_baas]

Hey D

Yhe I live alone so that was much easier for me to do.

The emotional eating seems to be your biggest hurdle to overcome. Everything in live have a cause and effect, in physics it is called Newton's 3rd law, every action has equal but opposite reaction. What I'm getting at is that you should just stop for a minute before you eat and think about the consequences.

Next time you feel like eatimg something unhealthy, stop, think and take a picture. Either a photo or mental image will do. Then take that picture with you to the gym. Stick it on a sparring bag and beat the crap out of it. This will sort out emotions and make you angry at unhealthy food.

Anyways I saw The expendables tonight and those guys are ripped so I'm going to let the weights have it tomorrow.

Night